Pearls Before Swine

Why do I always believe you?
Discussion
Argument
Point Taken
My opinions scatter across the floor
like a cheap pearl necklace when it breaks
Shattering my confidence
Breaking my concentration
Losing what I thought was my well-strung point of view

My ideas are valid
Then my thoughts become pallid
Why do I always believe only you?
Doubt creeps in
Inferiority
Depression
Death
My ideas burn slowly, painfully, and then die
in the light of your sun
You know how to shine like truth
Even when you lie
You never let me forget
I am completely inferior
You are always superior

I give in
I give up
You are never satisfied
Now I will play your game
Never the same
You did not care to know the real me
Bright
Alive
Creative
My loss will not be your gain
You have lost control
You have no idea
No strength to go where I go

Birth and Rebirth
Time for me
Alone
Happy
I pick up my true pearls of thought, wisdom, creativity
and make life beautiful once more
You can go to Hell
You no longer have power
Because I don’t believe in you anymore

Lora Frikken ~ 8-18- & 8-25-03

Transmigration

Detach yourself from this world
from those you love
from those you THINK you love
There are those who know you better than you know yourself
Those who care what happens to you
though you do not even know of their existence

Detach
It no longer matters
Your time has come
Release your spirit
Let it soar
so that when you leave
nothing can tie you to the earth
You will be able to fly freely to where you belong
into the arms of those who know you and love you
better than you were ever able to know and love yourself

You were never meant to be earthbound
You have suffered at the hands of others
as well as by the words and actions of your own heart
No one can change the past
you can only lay it to rest
Shed the tears to wash away the footprints on your heart
then walk away
making a new pathway
vowing never to walk
over another heart
never causing another grief
stepping carefully among the lives that try to hold you back
So that when you leave
when you depart
you will not leave sadness or harm or injury to another’s spirit

Detach yourself now
It is not an easy task to release all of your emotions
It is an even more difficult task
to give up the attempt to love
But in the end
you will know it was the right thing to do
The fight to attempt to make love come to you
will cause more harm than giving up the struggle
Some will say you are a quitter
a failure
But you have already known those emotions
have heard those accusations
have been called worse
and you have felt greater pains
Give it all up now

Detach
Release
Say Farewell
Each painful teardrop
burns through the ties that bind you
to your old way of thinking and living
When the pain ends
you will be awash in a healing river of your own making
floating freely into the arms of those who want you
know you
and who will never judge you
All of the things you could never find for yourself before
you will now find on this road of knowledge
Blue will no longer mean sadness
It will mean salvation

Your spirit has found the home you were meant to have
Now you will love and be loved
The way it should be
Your heart is free

Lora Frikken ~ 8-18-03

Tears Of The Serpent

Beneath the red of the moon
our time of renewal has begun;
The gathering commences soon,
brought about by the sound of a drum.

We pray that our sacrifice
will bring seasons that are fair;
Though they come at a costly price,
such things are required for our welfare.

Mystery will rule this night,
when dreams become reality;
Such magic beneath the moonlight
encompasses all who desire immortality.

The boundaries of our domain
will be breached by a mystic force;
Our Mother’s words will fall like rain,
begging to appease the most Sacred Source.

Stained by the serpent’s tears,
sanctified by destiny and by fate,
Raised for this day throughout the years,
my life will renew the land I now dedicate.

A moment before the sunrise
brings the serpents into my sight;
Arms raised to sacrifice and revitalize
send my spirit soaring toward my birthright.

Lora Frikken ~ 8-11-03 ~ A Dream

Size 2 Lament

Size 2 ~ I am blue,
but not as blue as you!
The day will come
when your bum
becomes a catch-22.

Size 2 ~ I wonder how
you will take your bow,
as that banana split
adds bit by bit
until you break the bough.

Size 2 ~ Will not last,
your thighs are getting vast;
and once unlaced
around your waist
your boobs will hang half-mast.

Size 2 ~ Now size 22,
put on that big muumuu!
You're one of us,
no need to fuss,
wave goodbye to your Size 2.

Lora Frikken ~ 8-9-03

Dancing In The Shadows

Dancing in the shadows
a life less real
Daylight and starlight
have the same feel
Within dawn and dusk
are the places I dwell
Dancing in between
heaven and hell
When I was a child
fear held my hand
By loosening my grip
I found no man’s land
Living in the shadows
is a very safe place
Hidden from the eyes
of the human race
Pushed away by those
who wanted to forget
Raised without love
everyone’s regret
Paid for my silence
a handsome price
Constantly reminded
of their sacrifice
Forgotten in the void
a puppet on strings
Yearning to fly away
on shadowy wings
I didn’t think it possible
to still feel the pain
Unworthy of their love
but not of their disdain
It’s time to turn my back
on each and every one
So I dance in the shadows
cast by their setting sun

Lora Frikken ~ 8-5-03

You Call My Name...

When you are bored or lonely
you call my name
You do not love me only
but you call my name
When you are sad and insecure
you call my name
You can be cruel and immature
yet you call my name
When you cannot find a friend
you call my name
You care not who you offend
so you call my name
When you find that I am finally gone
you still call my name
You no longer have me to lean upon
now you cry my name

Lora Frikken ~ 8-4-03

Our Whole Lives Long...

It sounds just like a short story,
this one little phrase:
Our whole lives long
isn't so long nowadays.

In what felt like a second or two,
days and years passed by:
Our whole lives long
will end with a simple sigh.

Remembering the good old days
becomes our constant guide:
Our whole lives long
finds us never satisfied.

Despite the victories we claimed,
we never saw the light:
Our whole lives long
is now reduced to hindsight.

Lora Frikken ~ 8-2-03