Fantasies

As a child
I mixed my fantasies
with the truths that I was taught

As an adult
I mix my truths
with fantasies nearly long forgot

As a child
I lived for the moment
to play, to feel, to go on forever

As an adult
I live in fear
afraid of change, of people, of never

As a child
something changed me
a truth that ended fantasies

As an adult
my choices harm me
reaping lifelong consequences

As a child
no one wanted to know
why I was losing control

As an adult
no one will ever know
why I can never be whole

Lora Frikken ~ 4-1-17