Invisible Truth

It's not that I cannot tell you
what you want to know
It's just that I'm so tired
of putting on this show

I've lived long enough to see
that I will never change
I've spent too long creating
the me I needed to rearrange

I no longer remember when
the real me began to leave
I don't recall whether or not
there was any time to grieve

I only wanted to be invisible
to stop all the questions ‘why’
I needed to stop being afraid
of searching to find a reply

So I made myself up as I went
learning to believe each new lie
But lies have a life all their own
becoming necessary to justify

The truth is that I continue
to live life under lock and key
Still impossible to be invisible
no matter how I reinvent me

Lora Frikken ~ 4-27-08